This Weekend

Life is strange. I don't know how to interpret my circumstances at all right now. I don't even know what I am going to do from day to day - and yet I do have peace in the immensity of it all...not the glib kind of peace, but that deep abiding rest that lets me know that I am doing it right even though everyone seems to be doing laps around me. Thought I don't know what is going on, I do know the one who is ordering it all for me. My 2 weeks in Albequerque were very theraputic and I had pretty much the best time ever - knowing again the feeling of childhood carefreeness and not worrying about what I should be or how I ought to be or pray or live or think (!!!!!!) But that sense of liberty and boldness before God. I have been back in Tyler for about 3 days now and I am again inundated with all the questions of life. Julie just arrived here a few hours ago and it is the greatest joy to see her face again. We will leave for Dallas tomorrow morning and stay with my sister tomorrow night and drop her off at the airport Friday morning to go back to Germany until March. I will soon begin looking for a job to make money for my trip for Lebanon coming up in May. What is God doing? Somewhere does all this mess make sense? Make sense of me, Lord....