All the World's A Stage

There you are
bathed in bright light,
All your friends have gone.
You've had a great fright
But all the world is a stage.

On your mark,
watch your step...go
All your life has led you here,
so...

And I am thinking to myself...could it be that all your life does lead to a certain point of decision that will torment every "natural" fiber in your being. Where you realize the stakes are as high as they can get and your finite loss will be greater than you feel you can take. For each person it would be different of course...and it isn't always so "dramatic" as this sounds - but still it is a point where your willingness to defer to the spirit...or your ability to wait and listen is tested by a choice where your spiritual faculties would most easily be clouded by your own feelings and reasons about the issue.

"...There lies the difficulty with the young believer. While he ought to wait before the Lord, denying his thought, feeling and desire, he often becomes impatient waiting for His revelation and substitutes his own dusguised will for that of God. As a consequence he falls under the accusation of his conscience. Granted that he genuinely has a heart to follow God's intent, he nonetheless unwittingly follows the thought of his mind because he lacks spiritual knowledge. Who can avoid mistakes if he walks without revelation?"(Nee, The Spiritual Man)

"Everything naturally belonging to believers must fo through the death of the cross. The mind may accept this as a theory, but it surely will oppose it as a practice"(same).

These are the things on my mind tonight. To deny one's self the things that are blatently worldly is one thing- but to deny yourself the one thing that you most desire and that you could explain logically and would be wholly justified in most everyone's eyes - for the one reason that your spirit has lately been in the business of defying your mind with all its reasons - - - this is the very thing our lives come down to as a believer. To have eternal life...to know God - no other way than by a pure unadulterated spirit which teaches us to deny ourselves in a world of logic and self-satisfaction. The Cross is beautiful in theory - but put us in such a situation and we rage (even if we are not so bold as to admit it...) Blessed are the pure of heart - for they will see God.

I know all these things are disjunct - I just wanted to write out the things in my head...seeing how I have no pen and paper... God has been good to us - wish I had this sense in my heart always. Love you all...